Feb frenzy !

I come here again to rant.

The past 2 months have been tiring. Just tiring. With all these PG exams. Realized the true competition of Medical Entrance only now. Two more exams to go. But I have completely lost hope now. Maybe I might not clear this time. Maybe I might never write these exams again. Don't know. I donot know when did the optimist me become a completely pessimist me .

There is something I have been hoping for. Dreaming for. Wishing for. Praying for.

But I trust the Divine Decree. Whatsoever it is. It is the 6th pillar of Iman - To believe in fate, good or evil.

My Rabb knows me better than I do myself. His Plan for me is anyday better than my lowly desires and wishes. Thawakalthu-ala- Allah ! :)

Smile !

Sometimes in life we feel so blue,
but someone somewhere is not happy as you.
somewhere far at the border when a soldier sleeps,
missing his loved ones he silently weeps.
somewhere a mother painfully sighs coz,
her new born baby didnt open her eyes.
somewhere a poor dad silently cries,
when he sees his son begging for a bowl of rice.
somewhere in an orphanage a little girl is sad,
when she misses her mom and dad.
So at times a reason to smile you may not have any,
say to yourself that you are happier than many.
'cause life is beautiful and its not always blue,
and someone somewhere is not as happy as you. :-)

-Unknown

Jan-o-mania

This post is basically written so that blog doesnt go empty in the first month of 2012 itself. And maybe another one of those venting episodes !

Just realized it has been 4 years since I started blogging, though I aint a frequent blogger. I like having my own space on web-o-sphere. And yes I hardly let any one I know in real life, know about the blog.

Here, I am back in the same place where I spent 5 years of my life, preparing for my post- graduate entrance exams. One down. 6 more exams to go. Insha'allah. I wonder how will I fare in them.

For a long time , I was confused whether I really wanted to do MDS or not,considering the fact ,I really didnt have the strength in me to stay again for 3 more years without anyone around ,so far away from my dear family.. Then when I finally realized I wanted to do and started preparing for the exams, maybe ,it was just a lil bit late. Hmm.. Dono. Anyways trying my level best now, Insha'allah! I really do pray and hope I get in through and get a seat of my choice in a city I can live by.

I waited for a long time for some door to open up for me. I waited for some signs from Lord. Nothing did. Alhamdulilah for it, cos then I finally understood ,I cannot keep expecting life to happen. I have to make it happen for myself, all by myself. We have to do our part & then leave the rest to Lord. Preparing for PG is one of the first steps in it. Insha'allah.

A few months back, at home, seeing my agonizing confused state ,my mom adviced me, 'go pray Salaathul Isthikhara. Ask Allah for guidance. He knows your troubles' . And seriously , I supposed it changed my outlook a whole lot. I had read/studied about Salathul Isthikhara a lot. But never really prayed until then. I used to think it was only for decisions related to marriage or so. I was wrong. I understand now, it is for any decision in regards. To ask Allah to bless us with something which is good for us in our Deen, our livelihood, our affairs, both in this world and in the Hereafter and also for us to be pleased and happy with the blessing. I would suggest the same ,to anyone going through indecisive or confusive stages of their life. I only wished I had prayed earlier.

There is none who knows us better than Allah Subhanahu Wa'Tala'.

Besides, a close friend of mine got 'nikkah-ed' . Couldn't be there for the function cos of the so called exams. Felt really low cos we grew up together, had our crazy girl's dreams together, and she is one of the only two people whom I had promised (since childhood) that I would be there for her big day, but I couldn't ! Insha'allah hoping to be there for the reception. May Allah Almighty bless you with the best in this world & the Hereafter Akhira. May your days ahead be blessed with joy, love & happiness and may it erase all those dark, depressing days, you had gone through. May you both remain under God's protection always & May He make this union a reason for you both to come closer to Him.

Before I vent, any more of my boring thoughts, I really need to stop, I suppose :D

'O overturner of hearts, make my heart firm in your religion'

Ya Rabb, make me among the company of the righteous .
Ya Rabb, make me one of your slaves who is always pleased and happy with Your Decree.

MCD- 9

College Auditorium

Sept 20, 2011 - Graduation day



Graduation from a student to a doctor...with all its uncertainty ,

"Am I really ready to handle the challenges? "

"Will I live upto the expectation of the two initials before my name?"

"Will I be successful in my career?" and a million questions.....


Ever since I first witnessed the graduation Day program of my super seniors when I was in 1st year, have been eagerly waiting for my BIG DAY and Alhamdulilah it truly was a fantabulous day !

Hippocratic Oath

Like I updated on my personal profile :
"Insha'allah,Less than 12 hours to go for my Graduation Day - The first big event of my life ! Dono what I feel now ! May everything go good for each & everyone of us !! =)"
That was my un-explainable emotion the day before the function.


Getting Ready. Saree Troubles. Smiles. Photo Shoot. The graduation gown. Graduation March.Lighted Candles.Seating on our designated seats. Rising up to take The Hippocratic Oath. Changing the Tassel from left to right.Jubilation. Being called on stage for finally receiving my Bachelor of Dental Surgery Award. Being called on stage twice again for topping in two final year subjects. Speaking on behalf of the Outgoing Interns . Throwing the Cap in unison. Congratulatory messages. Laughter. Happiness. Happiness. Hapiness.

It truly was the most ''proudest'' day of my life , till date. Receiving the Degree in front of my two dearest people , who flew in all the way from Doha to Bangalore just for the occasion - My loving parents. My Biggest Doors to Jannah. I hope I did make you people proud ! :)

To all my dearest classmates, whom I have spent 5 years of my life growing up with, I will miss each and everyone of you ! You have taught me in ways more than anyone else. For a girl who grew up in the Arabian Gulf and oblivious of the bigger world, you people truly enriched me with experiences and memories, I otherwise wouldn't have . I came to know about the different festivals , the various cuisine in different parts of India , even our varied response to a particular situation. Kite flying festival - Uttarayan, Bihu , Navratri, Holi, Dhokla, Rasgulla even Pani Puri - The different names I had read in my geography text only until I came to Bangalore. I truly did experience a cultural diaspora among st you guys.

Class of 2011

I repeat the same words from my graduation speech.... " to a childhood friend who was always there, to a sibling who was never too busy , to a teacher who believed in our potential " Yes ! I have a million people to say my thanks and gratitude to ! :) ( a different blog post , I suppose ! )

I wonder what tomorrow holds for me. But I leave it to my Rabb. He has blessed me every single minute until now, even more than I deserved. So then how can I not trust HIM - Al Wadud - The Loving


.....and as the name of our event suggested, (UDGAMA 2011- The Rising star )
May we all rise to reach the pinnacle of glory in our personal, professional and spiritual life !

Heaven lies at her feet.

Dua of a Single Muslimah =)

"Ya Rabb, bless me with a spouse who is the coolness of my eyes in this life & helps me to attain Jannathul-firdaus-al'alaa in the next "

Ameen

MCD- 8

For the innumerable people I have met during the course of my college years :

In course of time,innumerable people are gonna cross our path..some of them we end up being close to..some expand our horizon of thoughts..some are there for just a season..some break our hearts...with some we are our absolute best...some help us in revealing to ourselves,our-not-so-good-side...with some it is just gonna be a smile-while-we-cross-the-corridors-relationship...some, just another face on the street...but with every person,we are gonna polish a facet of our character, learn a new way of handling with situations, in short, every person on our way leaves their footprints on our hearts,in some way or the other!