• My Abode of Peace

    Where we love is home - home that our feet may leave, but never our hearts. (Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr)

  • Solace

    When nothing can comfort you, His words can. His words always will.

  • Some days, the view looks scary. Trust Him. He is the Best of Planners.

  • Showers of blessing.

    Clouds come floating in to my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky. (Tagore)

  • Hop and Jump

    For in every adult there dwells the child that was, and in every child there lies the adult that will be.(John Connolly)

MCD- 9

Nov 25, 2011
College Auditorium

Sept 20, 2011 - Graduation day

Graduation from a student to a doctor...with all its uncertainty ,

"Am I really ready to handle the challenges? "

"Will I live upto the expectation of the two initials before my name?"

"Will I be successful in my career?" and a million questions.....

Ever since I first witnessed the graduation Day program of my super seniors when I was in 1st year, have been eagerly waiting for my BIG DAY and Alhamdulilah it truly was a fantabulous day !

Hippocratic Oath
Like I updated on my personal profile :
"Insha'allah,Less than 12 hours to go for my Graduation Day - The first big event of my life ! Dono what I feel now ! May everything go good for each & everyone of us !! =)"
That was my un-explainable emotion the day before the function.

Getting Ready. Saree Troubles. Smiles. Photo Shoot. The graduation gown. Graduation March.Lighted Candles.Seating on our designated seats. Rising up to take The Hippocratic Oath. Changing the Tassel from left to right.Jubilation. Being called on stage for finally receiving my Bachelor of Dental Surgery Award. Being called on stage twice again for topping in two final year subjects. Speaking on behalf of the Outgoing Interns . Throwing the Cap in unison. Congratulatory messages. Laughter. Happiness. Happiness. Hapiness.

It truly was the most ''proudest'' day of my life , till date. Receiving the Degree in front of my two dearest people , who flew in all the way from Doha to Bangalore just for the occasion - My loving parents. My Biggest Doors to Jannah. I hope I did make you people proud ! :)

To all my dearest classmates, whom I have spent 5 years of my life growing up with, I will miss each and everyone of you ! You have taught me in ways more than anyone else. For a girl who grew up in the Arabian Gulf and oblivious of the bigger world, you people truly enriched me with experiences and memories, I otherwise wouldn't have . I came to know about the different festivals , the various cuisine in different parts of India , even our varied response to a particular situation. Kite flying festival - Uttarayan, Bihu , Navratri, Holi, Dhokla, Rasgulla even Pani Puri - The different names I had read in my geography text only until I came to Bangalore. I truly did experience a cultural diaspora among st you guys.

Class of 2011
I repeat the same words from my graduation speech.... " to a childhood friend who was always there, to a sibling who was never too busy , to a teacher who believed in our potential " Yes ! I have a million people to say my thanks and gratitude to ! :) ( a different blog post , I suppose ! )

I wonder what tomorrow holds for me. But I leave it to my Rabb. He has blessed me every single minute until now, even more than I deserved. So then how can I not trust HIM - Al Wadud - The Loving

.....and as the name of our event suggested, (UDGAMA 2011- The Rising star )
May we all rise to reach the pinnacle of glory in our personal, professional and spiritual life !

Heaven lies at her feet.

Nov 23, 2011

Dua of a Single Muslimah =)

Nov 20, 2011

"Ya Rabb, bless me with a spouse who is the coolness of my eyes in this life & helps me to attain Jannathul-firdaus-al'alaa in the next "


MCD- 8

Nov 19, 2011
For the innumerable people I have met during the course of my college years :

In course of time,innumerable people are gonna cross our path..some of them we end up being close to..some expand our horizon of thoughts..some are there for just a season..some break our hearts...with some we are our absolute best...some help us in revealing to ourselves,our-not-so-good-side...with some it is just gonna be a smile-while-we-cross-the-corridors-relationship...some, just another face on the street...but with every person,we are gonna polish a facet of our character, learn a new way of handling with situations, in short, every person on our way leaves their footprints on our hearts,in some way or the other!

MCD- 7

Nov 18, 2011

I had updated this on twitter on May 28,2011. Feel it deserves a sure shot blog mention ! :)

There are many people to whom I shud say my thanks to as I head towards the final few months of college (Insha'allah).One sure is Ish Aunty & her family for the innumerable help done to me during my 5 years of college. That is one relationship in Blore that I am sure grateful for.Alhamdulilah.

'Supporting me left & right when my 2nd year results got withheld & then again sharing my happiness,when the results came & I topped,alhamdulilah.Consoling me when my cash got stolen or when I got robbed or how can I forget ,the countless times she made food for me during Ramadan,both Suhoor & Ifthar.Making sure everyone around was 'quiet' just because I was studying & motivating me all the time I was down.There were many times I missed Umma terribly & I wud go talk to her & somewhere I wud just feel alright.'

Thankyou for everything u have done for me.Thankyou for trusting me wid everything.Thank you for always making sure that I dint spend my Eid alone & that I wasnt lonely.Thankyou for considering me as a child of yours ! :)

Monu,u r really one of the closest friends I had in college & the bestest roomie ever.I miss our talking till late nite/serials-on-colours & other tv shows/ girl craziness/& everything else I shared wid u !

Blessed Lands, Indeed !

Oct 30, 2011
It was the winter of 1997. I was in 4 th grade. My family decided to go for Umrah. Excitement creeps my body since it is the first time that I am going to see the ''Ka'bah" and to the Holy City of Makkah. More excitement for me as we are travelling with one of my best friend's (FF) family !!

To this December, It has been 14 years since that journey.....

My heart yearns to go back to the Holy Land...

to taste the feeling of Peace when we first set our eyes on the Ka'bah...   

to circumambulate 7 times around the Ka'bah & to ask for forgiveness from AL Ghaffar ...

to kiss the Hajar Al Aswad and to remember I am touching the same spot as was touched by our Beloved Prophet SAW ...

to cry to my Lord of my innermost fears of which only He knows...

to say my Salaah in the Masjid al Haram and know that is equivalent to a 100 000 prayers and to feel the Oneness of The Ummah ...

to feel my forehead, while in Sujood, on the cold slab in the Courtyard of Mosque in Makkah...

to stand near the Maqam Ibrahim and pray the 2 Rakah's and remember the story of Prophet Ibrahim AS as he built the first place of Worship on earth ...

to perform Saee' along the Mountains of Safa & Marwah and to remember the story of a mother's ( Haajar) franatic search of water for her son ( Ismaeel AS) ...

to drink the blessed water of ZamZam and feel its coolness trickle down my throat   ...

to see the Jabal Al-Noor where the first words of ''Iqra' " were revealed and to remind myself to just read more...

to hear the beautiful recitation of Qur'an by Sheikh Sudais, Sheikh Shuraim and other Imam(s) of the Holy Mosque...

to visit our Beloved Prophet's SAW Mosque and to feel , I am in the same place, same spot, where once long ago, Prophet SAW lived...

to pray 2 Raka'hs in Ar Rawda in the Prophet's Mosque...

to feel the coolness of the morning breeze as I walk in the blessed town of Madinah after Fajr Salaah...

Ya Rabb, help me to return back to the blessed lands soon - Ameen! 

I look in to myself....

Oct 28, 2011
I look in to myself...the time wasted without Your rememberance
You know, still
You choose to bless me with a little more 'time' to redeem myself !

I look in to myself...the temper tantrums
You know, still
You choose to bless me with people who will stay inspite !

I look in to myself...the dark spots on my heart,
You know, still,
You choose to bless me with people to love!

I look in to myself...the prayer said in haste
You know, still
You choose to bless me with answer to my duas !

I look in to myself...shame and regret on my innumerable sins
You know, stil
You choose to bless me with 'veil' of my sins !

I look in to myself...bickering about the food on the table
You know,still
You choose to bless me with protection from poverty & hunger !

I look in to myself....impatience when pain strikes
You know, still
You choose to bless me with good health otherwise !

I look in to myself.....complaints when things go wrong
You know, still
You choose to bless me with 'beautiful endings' !

I look in to myself...the laziness to achieve my targets
You know, still
You choose to bless me with intellect and curiosity!

I look in to myself...all I can find is the innumerable mistakes I have done, day in & day out
You know, still
You choose to bless me with your infinite blessings !

Blessings, most often, which I overlook...
Blessings, which sometimes, others are yearning for..
Blessings, which I take for granted.

Alhamdulilah! Alhamdulilah! Alhamdulilah!

Ya Rabb, make me of Your slaves who remember You every minute.
Ya Rabb, make me of Your slaves who Praise You often.
Ya Rabb, help me in control of my Nafs.
Ya Rabb, forgive me for my innumerable sins.
Ya Rabb, make me among the pious.
Ya Rabb, help me be in the company of the righteous.
Ya Rabb, make my restless heart to be at peace !

Ya Rabb, protect me from the blazing Fire !
Ya Rabb, place me among the people who enter Your Jannah !

Pearls from our Beloved Prophet SAW - Hadith

Oct 27, 2011
A raging war ...Unexplained emotions...Indecisiveness...Confusion...

....& I came across this 

Abu al-‘Abbas ‘Abdullah bin ‘Abbas, radiyallahu anhuma, reported: One day I was behind the 

Prophet, sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, and he said to me:

"O young man, I shall teach you some words [of advice] : Be mindful of Allah, and Allah will 

protect you. Be mindful of Allah, and you will find Him in front of you. If you (have need to) ask, 

ask of Allah; and if you seek help, seek help from Allah. 

Know that even if the Nation (or the whole community) were to gather together to benefit you with 

something, they would not benefit you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded 

for you, and that if they gather together to harm you with something, they would not be able to 

harm you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded against you.
 The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried."
[Al-Tirmidhi relates this and says: It is a good, genuine Hadith]
In a version other than that of al-Tirmidhi it reads:
"..Be mindful of Allah, you will find Him before you. Get to know Allah in prosperity and He will 

know you in adversity. Know that what has passed you by was not going to befall you; and that 

what has befallen you was not going to pass you by. And know that victory comes with patience, 

relief with affliction, and ease with hardship."

May it help some one like it helped me ! :)

MCD - 6

Oct 24, 2011
It was July 2009

The University examination of Third year season.....

It was the first time we were having clinical examination (since first two years are mostly pre-clinical years!) - meaning we would be graded for the examination from the way we dealt with the patient,case history , so forth & so on..

Subject of Preventive & Community Dentistry. Nerve wracking times. Its the clinical viva  time for me..made a whole lot of mistakes !!! The only thing I remember the Professor/ Head of Department saying to me was : "You will never become a good professional" and my already tainted confidence level became negative 100 maybe !!!!!

(I donot know why we often forget the innumerable praises others load on us but often takes with us that  one negative ,sarcastic comment and most often never heal from that!! )

Let me frankly say, I hated that particular professor all through my clinical years. I literally hated going for any community related work if he was in charge. I always felt he too had the same feeling of hatred towards me :D :D ( I agree, childish !)

Fast forward, Sept 2011. Graduation Day. Besides the regular momento,scroll etc , I get called on stage for the Subject Topper Award in  (same subject!!) Preventive & Community Dentistry and I had to receive the award from the very same Professor !!!!!

Somewhere along the line , that one statement had always been a source of motivation for me, though it has always been to prove him wrong. But nevertheless it became an inspiration to work harder!

So then , motivation can, at times, come from sarcastic comments too, isn't it ?

..and thinking of it now, I no longer have that feeling of hatred towards him anymore!!!

..confused !!

Oct 20, 2011
I always live according to other's views..so that others donot get hurt.

I never try to get what I want...it is always what others want.

Does that make me a big coward who cannot stand up for her own wants & needs ?

Or Does that make me some super sacrificing person who is most often always taken advantage of ?


Aug 13, 2011
I realized all my stories are being too depressing. Completely opposite of the person I am .

So here goes, some happy times.

It was Sept 21, 2006

A month after I came down to bangalore. Some of my old school freinds planned to go for an outing to Wonder-la ( Water theme park), around 9 of us.

That was the first time I was goin out on a full-fledged trip with just friends & no family.

Had an amazing time & in a way helped in dispelling the home sickness feeling. Today all the 9 of us are in different places, some are abroad doing their master's, some are working, rest I donot know...I have lost touch with almost all of them except one or two...

Whichever position of life they are in now, I hope & pray that they are forever blessed by Lord's bountiful blessings...

.....For the memories of that one day we spent in the waters & laughed with no care in the world !
From the Flickr album by Chitrasudar


It was the April of 2007.

I was close to her.Pretty close to her...she heard my every conversation on phone, she saw my every mood, she knew about all my close friends from school... 'She' was my room mate.

.... & then my money started getting stolen. Little by little, initially & then later to bigger amounts.

Time & again, all the evidences pointed to her. But I was too scared & hurt to confront her. Initially did not let my parents or friends know about it.

I could never confront her directly, neither did she ever accept the fact. She always said she was misunderstood. I doubted myself in even having accusing thoughts about her. I still donot know what the truth is. Or ever I will get answers to all the lies she said me.

It was January of 2009.

After having a long day , finishing my pending Oral Pathology Project, was walking back to my hostel from my friends. It became late , almost 9 in the night. I was carrying my laptop bag +college bag (which resembles a laptop bag too ) on my either shoulders. Suddenly a bike slowed down & snatched my college bag ( I presume supposing it to be the laptop bag ) . For a minute there, I did not know how to react. By the time, I regained my senses, the bike had taken a good head start. Though some of the friends who saw the incident went behind the robbers, they could not get hold of him. I never got my bag back. Nothing valuable , there was, except for my Oral Path Project which I had to start & complete all over again in a gap of 2 days.

The second incident never left its mark on me much, besides to be careful while I walk in the night.

But the first incident made an imprint on me forever...

I realized the people who can stab you worst are the ones whom are you most close to. As for the harsh words/actions of unknown people whom you meet on life's ways, it can never really impinge !

Be careful before you open your heart to some one !


Aug 7, 2011
Every Monday of First year ,we had a viva on Dental Materials, which means our Sundays used to go mostly preparing for it.

The topic was 'Dental Cements' in which we gotta know every minute detail of every cement we use in dental practice like compressive strength, tensile strength, yield strength ,blah blah (I think Civil Engineers can understand what I am talking about! )

One particular Monday & my viva did not go well.The lecturer handling it ,Dr. S gave me a 'lecture; in fact :
"I know you have done well in school, but you are taking college a little too lightly. The next 4 years can make your or break you. Finish your course, learn your work well , go back home & establish yourself "

Over the course of my non-clinical & clinical years , Dr. S ended up becoming one of my favorite Professors & a Dentist I look up to.

Even today, though he is no longer associated with our college, I know , if I have a doubt regarding any aspect of my field, I can sure ring him up !

Salute , Sir !


Aug 6, 2011
The second year of college was pretty tough for me. I was handled by some Professors who put into my face bluntly that I was incapable of studying or doing those Pre-clinical exercises.

Final two months came by.Worked with all my heart and head. Was in a mad rage to prove those people who belittled me. Prayed as much as I could.

Exam went good, but finally when the results, the results of 2 other classmates and mine were withheld at the University. Initially ,as usual, I blamed myself, thought I had written the Roll No. in the OMR sheets wrong. Later came to know it was a technical error at the Univ.

It was Ramadan when all this hungama happened. Prayed with so much of anguish & desperation, in a way I have never prayed before ( Now Looking at it ,it seems too silly ,but then I thought that was the end of the world :D )

Finally a week later, my results came. I topped, surprisingly. Alhamdulilah.

All praise to Lord Almighty.

.....& I learnt, a prayer of a fasting person doesn't go unanswered !

My College Days 1

I just have a few more days in college. Planning to write those small things I learnt , besides the actual degree...

It was August 15, 2006. Dad dropped me at the new hostel. I had a huge and horrid shock seeing my new abode(Unhygienic).Finally settled on the new place still, cos it was embedded in to my head that things are not going to be as cosy as it was in Doha, by my mom and sis.I thought this was part of being 'not cosy'

A whole lot of girls from different part of India were there in the hostel...from Assam, Delhi, Rajasthan, Gujarat, Bihar....They had joined a few days earlier and so by then had jelled up!

....& then I realized everyone around was speaking Hindi, a language which I totally abhorred, having to learn in school cos I could never really understand it then.Too much of talk, and laughter .....&  I couldn't be a part of it. Having grown up in a school where I had the same set of friends for 12 years, I was finding it real hard.

Little did I know then ,it was the begining of a long journey which taught me lots....

........to adjust with people from different places speaking different languages with different attitudes having different belief!


Jul 25, 2011
Patience.......He hears every prayer.

Patience.......He answers every prayer at the time best for it. 

Patience.......He has seen every tear & fear.

Patience.......He knows what's best for us, & we may not know. 

Patience........for 'He does not burden a soul beyond its scope' 

Patience........for He afflicts trials on whom He loves.

Patience.......for the end will be good,if it's not,it isn't the end yet.

Patience.......for reasons will be revealed in course of time.

Patience.......the dots can be connected only backwards.

Patience........for with ' Difficulty comes relief'

Patience........for perfection-of-life is not an aspect of Dunyah,but of Jannah.

Patience........for with every pain, He forgives a sin.

Patience........for our ultimate aim should not be temporary pleasures.

Patience........for our goal should be everlasting happiness of Jannah.

Patience........for adversities make us to be humble before Him.

Patience.........for difficulties help us to remember Him often. 

Patience........for our trials are minute compared to the trials faced by our beloved Prophet Muhammad  SAW

Patience......... Patience .....Patience

O you who believe! Seek assistance through patience and prayer; surely Allah is with the patient.(2 : 153)

Sky is the limit!

Jun 16, 2011
Growing up I had a million dream & one,(time n again , like I have written on my blog) was to work with WHO or UNICEF.To help impoverished children and kids affected by war .

I donot know when it came to my head...but I remember seeing a footage on TV ( Al Jazeera or QTV, don't remember) as a 12 year old, about the 12 year old Palestinian Child , Muhammad Al Durrah, who was shot dead during clashes between Israeli soldiers & Palestinian security officials.The boy was killed while his father tried to save his precious child"s life hiding behind a concrete cylinder.Losing a child is difficult for any parent. Imagine ,the anguish of the father who lost his child in front of his own eyes!?

...& One day, Insha'allah!

May 8, 2011

Haven't you noticed,many a times,we think when we get that perfect score on a test,get the latest gadget,be back with our family, or meet our better half,that the sorrow will fade away, that we will become happy again?

But also haven't u seen, even when we 'procure' these worldly joys,a sorrows lingers somewhere,a melancholy strikes deep,quite often,unexplainable?

Check out the video & see if it explains atleast a little of the answers to the above questions.

A quiet evening,coffee & some dreams!

May 7, 2011
...as  the sun rays warms my heart!

Saying it with FLOWERS! :)

(96:1).Read in the Name of your Lord Who has created you

A witness to each other's LIFE..... !

Mar 16, 2011
I am presently posted in Oral & Maxillofacial Surgery....ok my least favourite ! But ,Alhamdulilah, many instances & situations I have learnt from....

A bright Wednesday morning, HOD 's off day....& So we breathe a lil easy....It was just me & another co-intern present today.Rest two were on leave....


Mar 13, 2011
A sailor was stuck in an island where he was the only survivor.
He made a hut for his shelter. He was waiting for someone to help, but no one came. He stored food in the hut for his survival, but one day, the hut burnt to ashes and nothng was left of it.
He was so angry,he said,"God, why have you done this to me??"

The next morning rescuers came. Sailor asked,"How did you know that I am here?"
They replied..
"V saw a smoke signal!"

Trust ALLAH..
His plans are always greater than ours...! :-)

(A forward msg I received recently & wish to share! =) )

22 as it was....

Mar 7, 2011
24 hours before I turn 23,I want to look back at the wonderful year it has been,Alhamdulilah !

Innocence Personified!

Jan 27, 2011
My 3 year old cousin gets a dried twig .She moves away some soil,makes a place for planting the twig....

" & It will grow up ,give me lots and lots of mango.It will be very tasty.I will give you also"

A still ....

Jan 24, 2011

Souls in search-either for the best in this world or for the best in the Hereafter!

MY WISH.....

Jan 13, 2011
........for 2011  : A wish only I know :P

Insha'allah!! :)

In loving memory of.......

Jan 6, 2011
Long ago,when I joined college my sis said to me,"We are not letting u go to bangalore jus for a mere medical degree,but for u ,to learn to live too"

I am slowly realizing....