• My Abode of Peace

    Where we love is home - home that our feet may leave, but never our hearts. (Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr)

  • Solace

    When nothing can comfort you, His words can. His words always will.

  • Some days, the view looks scary. Trust Him. He is the Best of Planners.

  • Showers of blessing.

    Clouds come floating in to my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add colour to my sunset sky. (Tagore)

  • Hop and Jump

    For in every adult there dwells the child that was, and in every child there lies the adult that will be.(John Connolly)

Blessed Lands, Indeed !

Oct 30, 2011
It was the winter of 1997. I was in 4 th grade. My family decided to go for Umrah. Excitement creeps my body since it is the first time that I am going to see the ''Ka'bah" and to the Holy City of Makkah. More excitement for me as we are travelling with one of my best friend's (FF) family !!

To this December, It has been 14 years since that journey.....

My heart yearns to go back to the Holy Land...

to taste the feeling of Peace when we first set our eyes on the Ka'bah...   

to circumambulate 7 times around the Ka'bah & to ask for forgiveness from AL Ghaffar ...

to kiss the Hajar Al Aswad and to remember I am touching the same spot as was touched by our Beloved Prophet SAW ...

to cry to my Lord of my innermost fears of which only He knows...

to say my Salaah in the Masjid al Haram and know that is equivalent to a 100 000 prayers and to feel the Oneness of The Ummah ...

to feel my forehead, while in Sujood, on the cold slab in the Courtyard of Mosque in Makkah...

to stand near the Maqam Ibrahim and pray the 2 Rakah's and remember the story of Prophet Ibrahim AS as he built the first place of Worship on earth ...

to perform Saee' along the Mountains of Safa & Marwah and to remember the story of a mother's ( Haajar) franatic search of water for her son ( Ismaeel AS) ...

to drink the blessed water of ZamZam and feel its coolness trickle down my throat   ...

to see the Jabal Al-Noor where the first words of ''Iqra' " were revealed and to remind myself to just read more...

to hear the beautiful recitation of Qur'an by Sheikh Sudais, Sheikh Shuraim and other Imam(s) of the Holy Mosque...

to visit our Beloved Prophet's SAW Mosque and to feel , I am in the same place, same spot, where once long ago, Prophet SAW lived...

to pray 2 Raka'hs in Ar Rawda in the Prophet's Mosque...

to feel the coolness of the morning breeze as I walk in the blessed town of Madinah after Fajr Salaah...

Ya Rabb, help me to return back to the blessed lands soon - Ameen! 

I look in to myself....

Oct 28, 2011
I look in to myself...the time wasted without Your rememberance
You know, still
You choose to bless me with a little more 'time' to redeem myself !

I look in to myself...the temper tantrums
You know, still
You choose to bless me with people who will stay inspite !

I look in to myself...the dark spots on my heart,
You know, still,
You choose to bless me with people to love!

I look in to myself...the prayer said in haste
You know, still
You choose to bless me with answer to my duas !

I look in to myself...shame and regret on my innumerable sins
You know, stil
You choose to bless me with 'veil' of my sins !

I look in to myself...bickering about the food on the table
You know,still
You choose to bless me with protection from poverty & hunger !

I look in to myself....impatience when pain strikes
You know, still
You choose to bless me with good health otherwise !

I look in to myself.....complaints when things go wrong
You know, still
You choose to bless me with 'beautiful endings' !

I look in to myself...the laziness to achieve my targets
You know, still
You choose to bless me with intellect and curiosity!

I look in to myself...all I can find is the innumerable mistakes I have done, day in & day out
You know, still
You choose to bless me with your infinite blessings !

Blessings, most often, which I overlook...
Blessings, which sometimes, others are yearning for..
Blessings, which I take for granted.

Alhamdulilah! Alhamdulilah! Alhamdulilah!

Ya Rabb, make me of Your slaves who remember You every minute.
Ya Rabb, make me of Your slaves who Praise You often.
Ya Rabb, help me in control of my Nafs.
Ya Rabb, forgive me for my innumerable sins.
Ya Rabb, make me among the pious.
Ya Rabb, help me be in the company of the righteous.
Ya Rabb, make my restless heart to be at peace !

Ya Rabb, protect me from the blazing Fire !
Ya Rabb, place me among the people who enter Your Jannah !

Pearls from our Beloved Prophet SAW - Hadith

Oct 27, 2011
A raging war ...Unexplained emotions...Indecisiveness...Confusion...

....& I came across this 

Abu al-‘Abbas ‘Abdullah bin ‘Abbas, radiyallahu anhuma, reported: One day I was behind the 

Prophet, sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, and he said to me:

"O young man, I shall teach you some words [of advice] : Be mindful of Allah, and Allah will 

protect you. Be mindful of Allah, and you will find Him in front of you. If you (have need to) ask, 

ask of Allah; and if you seek help, seek help from Allah. 

Know that even if the Nation (or the whole community) were to gather together to benefit you with 

something, they would not benefit you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded 

for you, and that if they gather together to harm you with something, they would not be able to 

harm you with anything except that which Allah has already recorded against you.
 The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried."
[Al-Tirmidhi relates this and says: It is a good, genuine Hadith]
In a version other than that of al-Tirmidhi it reads:
"..Be mindful of Allah, you will find Him before you. Get to know Allah in prosperity and He will 

know you in adversity. Know that what has passed you by was not going to befall you; and that 

what has befallen you was not going to pass you by. And know that victory comes with patience, 

relief with affliction, and ease with hardship."

May it help some one like it helped me ! :)

MCD - 6

Oct 24, 2011
It was July 2009

The University examination of Third year season.....

It was the first time we were having clinical examination (since first two years are mostly pre-clinical years!) - meaning we would be graded for the examination from the way we dealt with the patient,case history , so forth & so on..

Subject of Preventive & Community Dentistry. Nerve wracking times. Its the clinical viva  time for me..made a whole lot of mistakes !!! The only thing I remember the Professor/ Head of Department saying to me was : "You will never become a good professional" and my already tainted confidence level became negative 100 maybe !!!!!

(I donot know why we often forget the innumerable praises others load on us but often takes with us that  one negative ,sarcastic comment and most often never heal from that!! )

Let me frankly say, I hated that particular professor all through my clinical years. I literally hated going for any community related work if he was in charge. I always felt he too had the same feeling of hatred towards me :D :D ( I agree, childish !)

Fast forward, Sept 2011. Graduation Day. Besides the regular momento,scroll etc , I get called on stage for the Subject Topper Award in  (same subject!!) Preventive & Community Dentistry and I had to receive the award from the very same Professor !!!!!

Somewhere along the line , that one statement had always been a source of motivation for me, though it has always been to prove him wrong. But nevertheless it became an inspiration to work harder!

So then , motivation can, at times, come from sarcastic comments too, isn't it ?

..and thinking of it now, I no longer have that feeling of hatred towards him anymore!!!

..confused !!

Oct 20, 2011
I always live according to other's views..so that others donot get hurt.

I never try to get what I want...it is always what others want.

Does that make me a big coward who cannot stand up for her own wants & needs ?

Or Does that make me some super sacrificing person who is most often always taken advantage of ?